Tired of waiting...

This post was supposed to be up yesterday but i didn't have the time to post it up.

14^th December 2007, 1131p.m.
I’m sitting in my room listening to SEXY BACK by Justin Timberlake (he’s a hawty). In less than 30 minutes time, it will be THE DAY. Wondering what day?! Well, it will be a year since we got together (Tigi and me).

11.40p.m.
Now, there’s another 20 minutes to go. I’m still alone and still waiting. Honestly, I’ve been waiting for the past one week for him to call and ask me out. But he didn’t. So, I kept telling myself that he is planning a surprise and that he would ask me out today. But, so far still nothing.Even till this moment, I keep telling myself that he will call me out anytime. Or maybe, he is gonna appear outside my house anytime soon. I’ll just wait. Now I’m listening to “HOME” by Michael Buble. At the same time, I’m stuffing myself with candies which I got it earlier from a friend’s Christmas play.

Where did I go wrong? What did I didn’t do?

It’s 11.48pm now.

Listening to “Always on My Mind” by Michael Buble.

11.55p.m.

I’m trying to distract myself from thinking of him. I’m actually thinking of Maria’s Margarita. They rock man!! They sang Sexy Back today at the battle of the bands. You should have seen the vocalist…he’s a hawty. He is so damn bloody talented and I just can’t help it but admire him. For your information, he is the same vocalist from Borange (see my previous blog).

It’s 12. Finally. Still no call yet. I’m so gonna fucking switch off my laptop and go to bed. Gotta get up early tomorrow for the education fair in Midvalley. So yeah, nites folks.

15^th December, 9.24a.m.

The long waited call came in yesterday at about 12.02a.m. I was so excited the moment I heard Mario Vasquez singing Gallery (that’s my ring tone and it’s also Tigi’s favourite song). But the caller turned out to be Ryan LB!!! Arrgh…damn!!! What a timing to call huh!! My tears started pouring down but then Ryan’s sweet girlie voice made me smile.

What is my feeling now? I dunno know and I dun care. Just fuck it man. I’m tired of waiting…

Borange Rocks!!

"Local Bands...nah..it's a waste of time to listen to their songs."
Wait!!!! Before you guys curse me, let me explain myself. Before 8th December 07, i never really had any good impression on local bands. In fact, i don't give a damn about it.
But after Celebration of Arts (my class project), i realized that there are many talented bands out there. These guys are awesome!!!
One particular band that caught my attention was BORANGE (maybe because my friend is the drummer...heheheh).

Borange!! You guys Rock!!

The vocalist has really nice voice and he even sang a mandarin song (vocalist is an indian). See, i told ya they're awesome! Moving on to the drummer, he is no other than my friend a.k.a Princess Ryan. There's a reason why i call him Princess and it's because he looks really really sweet. Just like a little girl. But hey, on that day he was soooooo charming. You should have seen him playing the drums. Cool, cute and simply hawt!!

He looks cool only on stage!

Caramel Macchiato

Is it possible if two good friends fall for the same guy? Well, it is possible especially if the guy is cute, intelligent and talented. So, how do you know if two good friends had fallen for the same guy? You will know it when you ask your friend for a sip of caramel macchiato, and you get a reply like this: “No! I’m not sharing anything with you.”

To my dear friend : He is really cuteeeeeeeee...He is very intelligent.. But he is not my type...Well...he could be.....butttttttttttttt... i have Tigi...handling one is more than enough!

My little advice: If you like something, go for it. Don't hesitate!

Marley, My dog for 4 days.

Marley has been with me for the past 4 days. And in these 4 days, he has been keeping me company when the time i needed someone the most.

He made me laugh with all the nonsense he did. He kept me company beside my bed. And each morning, he would greet me with the same expression on his face.

This dog is the world's worst dog as quoted by John Grogan.

But yesterday, he left me forever. I knew this was coming but i was still unprepared for it. He was put this sleep by John because he was getting older and it would be a torture to him to keep him alive. As i read the lines when he was put to sleep, tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn't help it but cry. It was as if i lost someone dear to me.

Though he was with me for only 4 days, though he never really existed, though i knew i will lose him one day; it was just too much for me to take it.


"Marley and Me" - by John Grogan is a book you will definitely love even if you are not a dog lover. And my last words to Marley: I will miss you...but i'm gonna make you mine by getting the book. I promise.

Happiness...Where are you??

I’ve achieved many things for the past one year and all these achievements brings me to something that I’ve least expected. I’ve wanted to own a laptop for almost a year now and finally I got it on Diwali. I’ve been promoted to the assistant manager post in the student ad agency. It’s definitely one of my goals to achieve it but I got promoted sooner than I predicted. Now that dad’s business has been doing well, I don’t have to worry about financial issues anymore. There were times that I used to skip meals so that I will have enough money to survive. And now, everything is being taken care of. Not forgetting that I’m doing quite well in my studies too.

All these achievements and stability in life has definitely taken away some of my worries. However, I do realize that happiness is moving further away from me. Sometimes, I wonder if I still know how to enjoy life. It’s like I don’t know how to laugh anymore. In fact, even a smile seems impossible.

Life moves on a fast lane, even if you slow down someone would probably knock you down (I can’t remember where I heard this quote from). But hey, it is very true. Neither can I slow down nor give up. In order to achieve my goals in life, I have no choice but to sacrifice a lot of things. And I wonder if one of that is Happiness??

I can’t remember when was I really happy. Well, I do hang out with friends everyday but I always have so many things going on in my mind that I forget to sit back and relax. There’s just so much of pain in me that I don’t know how to let it out. I really wished that someone could just bring me somewhere away from this hectic lifestyle and make me happy. Just a day would be enough because all I want is to be happy even if it’s just for a short while.

You know what I’m thinking now? Wouldn’t it be cool if I could teleport myself to somewhere nobody knows me…erm…maybe not. Well people, don’t take this blog as a depressing one. I’m just so tired but I don’t want to complain to anyone. So here I am expressing myself in words.

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A calculator that is able to calculate one's body value. Seems interesting. Well, pardon me for saying this, but all these while i thought only people in certain profession gets paid for their body. But now, with this easy tool, anyone can know how much is their body worth.

Mine worths only $4675.00 or should i say "Wow! That's a lot!"...hehehe...

Try it for fun people.

Devil disguising as Cupid! Will it Work?

I think i did something good today. Well, it's not charity, neither did i help a blind man to cross the road. Wondering what is that GOOD thing i did??

Well, i was chatting with my ex-school mate today. I had promised him that i'll introduce a girl to him as he doesnt have a girlfriend. So today, as i was chatting with him, another close friend of mine happened to be online. So well, the Devil's evil mind started working and decided to be a cupid for once. So yeah, after persuading both of them, the Devil sort of introduced them.

Realizing that the Devil might ruin the chemistry between them, Devil gave a lame excuse and left the conversation. The two then started chatting and chatting till God Knows When.

The PERFECT PLAN & PERFECT TIMING!! Just hope they get along well.

Done a good deed today. Getting nearer to Heaven. Muahahahaha.