Valentine....

Everyday is Vday if you're in love. Screw that saying because if that is true then why roses are extremely pricey during vday? Or why restaurants are fully booked on the day or why are there enormous crowd hijacking parks, malls theater and anywhere they can find?

Erm..think again!

Having said so, i didnt just stay home on vday. Bunch of single friends got together. We went to Wikiki and enjoyed live bands and analyzed bunch of strangers playing pool. Well, pool seems to be quite an interesting game. I managed to pick up a few tips from my date! =)

We had so much fun whole night long. Atleast i know my friends did because they were making fun of me the whole night. Well, what can i say...the special kid i am(according to them). After that we went off to Subang Asia Cafe for good old ikan bakar. Unfortunately, it didnt turn out well this time...shrugs!!

Just wanna say thanks to my dear fren paul for making this valentine such a great one... and dude..get well soon...(he met with an accident on the same day)...shrugs..just don't wanna talk about it here..shit happens..but thank god he is okie..

Well..i've got just one thing to say!! Valentine can be hell over fun with great friends around you.

P.S: Thanks to those who made it there as well(Beba, Sara, Moga, Chris, Lisa, Fel & parents(met them coincidentally there..what a small world)

Devil is feeling so loved!!!

Why do i feel this way?

I feel like i'm lost and totally clueless of what's happening to me. College ended...work started. Been working for 3 months now, and i still feel something is missing. Why do i feel that m not doing something that i enjoy? Why do i feel that i'm just doing something for the sake of doing it?

Why do i feel so terrible now?? I'm afraid to just let go of something and go into something that i would enjoy doing..

I'm so afraid of making moves...yes i know there is not gona be any positive feedbacks..but what the hell is wrong with me?? Why m i so afraid of trying?? This is not me!!!

I feel so crappy now!!

Them!!

I’m becoming one of them.

They don’t smile at you.

They don’t greet you.

They don’t look around each other.

They are just expressionless.

When you look into someone’s eye, you could feel them.

If they are happy, sad or simply tired, you could always see it through their eye.

But they, nothing seems to reflect from their eye.

One would wonder if they are all hypnotized.

All you can see is the blankness in their stare.

I’ve always wondered what has made them into “Them”.

It wasn’t easy to find the answer.

But today, I broke through the barrier that was between us.

I now know why are they “them”

It wasn’t hard as I too am evolving into “them”.

“Them” as in the working people.

The same people I see on a daily basis in the bus.

All they have on their face is just another day of work.

They forget to smile, they forget to look out of the bus and they forget to capture fun moments of a bus ride.

Now I know what is running in their mind.

“Where to eat or lunch?” “Hope there’s no shocking email” “What time work would finish today”..and bla bla bla!

Changes....

Work is boring! And now worse coz have to handle someone's else job because they are going on leave. What am i?? Replacement for all who wants to go for holiday? Damn it!
Fought with mum yesterday coz dint call her!
Fought with a friend today coz he likes me. Yes, i know its stupid but i just tend to avoid people when i know they like me.
And now, i'm just thinking why is life so boring and complicated? I have no complains but sometimes just can' help it but get annoyed of the way things are right now.
Wished i could just go to a land far far away! Not be seen or heard by anyone i know! Stupid me! That's never gonna happen!

Life has changed so much since i stepped into the working world!! Everything now is about work and money and being able to stand on your own feet! All of a sudden there are so many responsibilites on you. Gosh! This is just so hard to cope with! Can i not grow up??

Age Gap aint no issue!!

Came across an interesting article today. A 37 years old dude married a 106 years old grandma! Wooohooooo!!! Congrats to the unusual couple man!!

This is so none of my problem but i just cant help it but say my piece out.

God damn 69 years of difference in age. What?? Love is really blind now??

Sometimes i just don't get it. What were they thinking?? I mean, yea, screw what the society has got to say. But then again, seriously, what were they thinking?? Well, i bet they weren't even thinking maybe. Such a big gap is no joke. First of all, what would they talk about?? What's their common interest? Or what can they even do together?

Nanny says "I'm having backache" and dude says "I'm in the mood for some sex tonite". That's hilarious.

What is happening? Is there even love in this?? Or was it based purely on companionship?

Confused Devil is confused again!!

Not banned anymore?!

PM says that it is okie to practise Yoga without chanting any mantra. So now it's not banned anymore.

How ridiculous it is to just announce Yoga will be banned and then after all the hoo haas..it's not banned anymore?? Why cant these people just get the facts ryte before even announcing something.

Stupidity has no cure!

I just realised that my blog is no more a personal blog. Oh crap!!! How could i be so stupid to actually register my blog in bloggers buff..why didnt i think of the consequences???

Anyone can now read my blog and know so much about me. Face it moron!! I'm just stupid!! haizzz...

Advertising = Creativity??? Think Again!

It's been 2 weeks since i started work and honestly it hasn't been what i expected at all. First of all, someone has been giving me a real hard time at work. Verbal abuses which are totally frustrating and depressing. What did i do to deserve all this man?? Not that i committed any mistakes, its just tat the person is mentally effected in some ways. To tell the truth, there hasn't been a day passing by without me crying. It came to a point where i felt like giving up. That's so not me but yea..this time, it just way past the limit. I'm still considering if i should hang on.

Another thing that i noticed is that everyone around me is brutally killing advertising and creativity. Art directors propose real good proposal but in the end of the day cliet change this chage that and everything ends up looking like a high school notice board ad. Like what the fark is wrong ryte!!! The worse is that even the creatives have no say in anything if cliet insist on some crappy ad. Then what is the point??? I just don't get it. hy must it be this way??

If you look at ad these days, its all so crappy. Why can't it be creative?? What happened to it?? A friend of mine shared her experinces while in taiwan. Holy god!! The ads there are just so interesting. In fact, if you take a look at ads from Indonesia, Thailand or even India, it's all so catchy. That's what creative is all about. What the fark is wrong with Malaysian industry?? So much limitations so much control over the content. And worse is jackass clients who don't appreciate good work. Fuck Man!! That's why i say everyone is brutally killing advertising and creativity!!

I'm so disppointed!!

Expecting Diwali...WoW!!

It's been years since i spent Diwali at home with family. For the past 5 years, i have been out there somewhere and only home on the day of Diwali. This year, i'm actually expecting Diwali...Wow..that's like so surprising!!

Now that i'm officially no more a student and currently jobless as well...i seem to have all the time in the world. To begin with, i've been helping mum to bake cookies and cakes (supposedly for Diwali but we kids at home just cant resist it...so yea..mum gotta keep baking cakes until Diwali).

I've also been playing PS2 everyday with my brothers...and guess what..i actually won twice after playing so many rounds...well..i guess maybe they just wanted me to win!! But who cares...its fun and m loving it.

Then there's my lovely dog snoopy...he's been so adorable. We seem to be getting pretty close these days. The only person missing would be dad..God knows what is he busy with that he rarely comes back!! Haiz!! Wished he was home more often.

Soon all these would end...eh wait..sounds like m dying! Choi Choi Choi...well soon after i get a job, i have to go back to kayhell!! And hell yea i'm gonna miss home so damn bloody much!!

Fucked up Day!!

Got up today with one of those lazy and fucked up mood. Appointment at LB was at 11am...and i was still on bed until 9am. As i got up to get ready, a call came in. It was that dude from LB. He called to ask me if i was on the way there, to which of course i provided him with the damn truth. And his reply was "Oh thank god i called you. Would like to inform you that we have to cancel the interview due to some unforeseen circumstances".

Taadaaaa!! I was so happy. So yea, kinda started the day reading up news and chatting with some friends. Then went out for a movie with Jamie. We watched "Money not enough 2". This movie is so hilarious and so touching. I cried while laughing and cried during the emo scene. But hey, the lesson learned is priceless. Money is nothing when you have no one to share your life with.

Came back home and feeling so lifeless again. I know why am i feeling this way. It's because i haven't receive the call from McCann yet. I know interview results can't be out in a day's time but i can't help it but feel depressed.

How long more do i have to wait till i know the result?? To u it may be just another day but for me it's another 24 hours!!

Ahhhh..i'm just full of craps!!

Mind Blowing Interview!!

Today, Sept 8,2008 marks an important day in my life. A casual interview turned out to be a mind blowing eye opener.

Lost? Have no idea what m i talking about??

Well, today i went for an 2nd interview with Mr Abhinav Sharma, Head of Planner from McCann Erickson. The interview was at 6pm at Pj Hilton (what a weird time n place) and therefore i dragged my friend Jamie along just in case anything happens.

Before leaving for the interview, i had actually told Jamie that i will be out in 5 minutes. I was so sure it wont take long as my 1st interview with the GM of McCann was very fast. So yea, went in and saw Mr Abhinav. He asked if i wanted to have anything to drink and of course i said no.

At 1st, i was a lil nervous but as we talked n talked and talked..all the nervousness went off. We were talking as if we were friends. Pheeeeeeeeeeeew...He spoke about so many things from work related, general interest, hobbies, childhood and bla bla bla. Oh yea..he is learning Mandarin now.
I seriosuly learnt alot from him today. Like what i said, it was a mind blowing session. Gosh!! He is so fucking knowledgeable. He is someone whom i want to talk to the whole day and i know i wnt be bored. God damn it!! How interesting!! Wow!!

I really wanna be wroking for him...i shall take him as my Guru!! Awesome...fucking awesome..
who needs sex when u can talk the whole day with a man like him??!! (Just a random thing to say)

Anyways, the 5 minutes interview turned out to be a 2 hours chat. I'm so sorry Jamie..u had to wait all alone in Secret Recipe...and so sorry for the 12 missed calls..Thanks alot baby!!

Complete Emptiness

Since you left, there has been nothing but Emptiness.
Each day passes by without hopes...without dreams.
Each day is just another day without having to think about you

Yes..its all over.
And you left me nothing but memories and emptiness.
I have everything now...friends, family, great things around me..some what great life..yet i'm lost.

Your favorite lines
"I miss you like the sun misses its flower in the depth of winter.
I miss you so and too much that my heart breaks into pieces...and each piece is able to stroll through a needles' hole"...

Yours always,
Devil...

Cooking with Shirls & Fel

Mon, 7th July 08

Fel & i followed Shirls back home to help her with the Thai Green Curry which was one of our item for the food sale next day. So, after class, Shirls brought us for dinner at this delicious, best pan mee i've ever had during this 5 years in KL..Pan Mee was simply delicious besides the fact that it was served by a model lookalike Chinese waitress (She has the potential of becoming a model.

The we headed back home to Shirls' place. Her neighbourbood has totally impressed me..i am speechless. Not because of the big expensive houses, but simply because it reminds me of the "Desperate Housewife Neighbourhood".

As we reached home, Shirls shouted for her youngest bro (David, 11) to help us carry the things into the house. David is a smart lil boy who is simply polite and friendly. As shirls introduced us to him, he immediately said "Hi,Felicia jie jie. Hi, Kristina jie jie" Oh my..how sweet ryte?!!! He carried some stuffs into the house and told his dad that we came. "Pa..Felicia jie jie and Kristina jie jie is here"...Again!! How polite and sweet ryte!! I'm totally impressed by his manners. It's hard to find kids who are so polite and well brought up these days.

We then spent couple of hours looking through stuffs at Shirls place and of course checking out her best fren su jin in facebook. Su Jin is gorgeous!! She is not drop dead gorgeous type..but she is simple and has that sweet smile on her face which could just melt one's heart. Man!! Wished i could meet her in person.

At about god knows what time, we headed to the kitchen. Shirls & i cut the tons of veges whereas fel was having fun cutting the chicken. She was actually releasing her stress with the use of the new sharp knife we got earlier in Tesco. Yadayadayada..we finally finished cutting the veges and the chicken. What's next? Like duh!! Cook it of course. Yadayadayada...all done...Check out some pics below..interesting pics..not to be missed!!

This is where all the vege goes..haahah!

Yummy!! Green Curry in process!!

Chef Fel putting in all her strength to stir the curry!!

Master Chef Shirls praying hard that the curry turns out well!!

Of course!! These 2 chefs needed a sweet assistant - Me!! hahaha

Ahhaaa!! That's us!!

Final Touch by Master Shirls...

That's for the delicious Pan Mee..the drink in your fridge (u knw what is it..shhh!!) & for the wonderful nite at ur place..i had loads of fun..especially after we found out the door was locked!! And also, the next morning...everything was just nice even though we were in the midst of crisis..
Oo..forgot to take the pic of the thai green curry (end product)..

Devil miss tortoise...

Did it Again!!

Once again..we fought. Why? For lame reasons..
These days, we fight often..actually it's not really fighting..more like being harsh to each other.
Things are obviously changing between us..I just don't like it...Maybe i should just leave it as it is..so that i'm not gonna screw things up more.

Well, nth is permanent in life..so is friendship!

Haiz..Devil is really upset!

Another Boring Day.

M bored!!
Bored with the usual daily routine - Get up..day dream..bathe and leave for college.
What happens in college bores me even more - Meet the same old lecturers..listen to them crap about the same old stories about crisis n PR..Gosh..Hw boring can that be..even the examples are the same old ones.

I need to get a life!! My life currently is at a crucial stage - attacked by boredom.

If i can blog about boredom here..thats already showing that I M BORED!!!

Devil needs to get a life!!

Arrghh...Missing you

To:
Bloody Dumbfuck Nyinyi...

If you happen to read my blog..this is for you.

You are a jackass for not calling me for 5 bloody days. Yes..it is only 5 days but u have never done that to me. Goddam 5 days...no calls no messages!! Yes i totally understand that your family is down in Malaysia after so freaking long..and yes i know you have a lot of catching up to do before they go back to China... but doink..cant you just sms me?? You cant be so busy ryte!!!

And well, you're lucky that u called me today. Damn..and u got the cheeck to tell me that You Missed Me!!! Gosh!!

Guys...Male Species..they can be just so annoying huh!! Oh well, sometimes i wished i could smack u on ur head and then (u knw what comes after that) hahahahah..

Devil still missing ya like fuckzzzzzzzzz!!!

Love Letter to Nades..

Before u guys are misled by the title, let me tell you who is Nades...
He is not the guy next door, nor m i having any crush on him.
Nades is the Devil in the Journalism Industry!! He is none other than the Men who is terrified by many politicians. He is Nadeswaran from The Sun.

I saw him last year during Kancil's Speaker series and yes i was so damn bloody impressed with the way he questioned Khairy Jamaluddin and the other some other speakers. Oh gosh..hez got balls man!!

Anyways, my publicity lecturer has asked us to interview a journalist as part of our assignment. first person who came into my mind was Nades. And so i sent him an email asking him if he could spare some of his precious time to let me interview him. (i shall not upload the email here because its really long)

This was his reply to my super long email:

Dear Kristina,

I am overseas at the moment. I will only be back on 1st July. Can u wait till then?

cheers'

nades

R. Nadeswaran
Deputy Editor
theSun
Tel: 03-7784-6688
Fax: 03-7785-2624/5

Should i wait or should i just interview some other journalist? Well..like Duh!! Of course i will wait. So yeah, i emailed him again saying that i don't mind waiting. Well of course i thanked him like there's no tomorrow...hehehe

I will send him another mail after 1st of July and we're gonna meet up soon...oh gosh i just cant wait...i'm so fucking excited!!

Confused Again!!

I realised that all my posts here are so fuckingly emo...coz i choose to write only when something is disturbing me. And yea...my psot here is the total opposite of my daily life. The usual crazy loud retard me choose to express the demotivated, sort of depressed, and a lil confused side of me in this blog.

I think m gonna lose someone very precious to me really soon. Why? Coz i'm too confused over my feelings over the person.

Haish..what the fuck ryte? only recently i told myself that i m not falling for anyone..but nw..i think i am. And that's just so disturbing. Everything was just perfect when we were bloody good friends. But now, i think even he is kinda confused over his feelings.

So what do i do now? Wait and see what happens? Or just confront? Or...just ignore the whole thing and whatever happened and get back to the normal life?

Finally there!

2 days ago, i was helping mum to clean up her room. I saw the weighing scale lying there on the floor and calling out to me.
For the past 1 year (actually 2), i've been trying to gain some weight at the right place (right place= boobies and bum+lil bit on thighs & arm. Perfect!)
After 2 years, i realized the only part that grew was my tummy (big tummy = overeating + tons of beers).
The moment of truth came...i stood on the scale and my lil bro said it out loud "50kg"!!! I was totally shocked. i told him to double check the scale...of course he said there's nothing wrong with the scale.
I got down...sat on the sofa...looked at my mum and said "Finally!! I'm 50kg..i'm so happy. From 45kg to 50kg...its a big achievement!! The ideal weight for me".
The after a while, i started worrying...i went into the room and looked at my body!!! Oh my fcking god!! How can this even happen? My tummy is huge, my thighs are expanding, my bum looks like its gonna sag anytime soon and maybe hit the floor, n my boobies as the usual mini cupcakes...holy shit...whats happening to me???
I shall not expand further...nitemare!!!!!
Phewww....mission starting tomorrow onwards. Jog in the morning..no more fattening unhealthy food...no more overeating...n most importantly...reduce on my alcohol consumption...
Why me???? i can't even imagine myself fat. i would probably kill myself. Oh gawd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Perfect??

Pretty hot girls are always in demand. They are the so-called dream girls of every guy. When guys look at their long hair, pretty face, petite figure...they know these girls are made for them. They know these girls are the right ones...how come huh? I just don't get it.

Someone please tell me...if u have an answer. Are they just so perfect that guys fall for them the moment they see them?