I’ve achieved many things for the past one year and all these achievements brings me to something that I’ve least expected. I’ve wanted to own a laptop for almost a year now and finally I got it on Diwali. I’ve been promoted to the assistant manager post in the student ad agency. It’s definitely one of my goals to achieve it but I got promoted sooner than I predicted. Now that dad’s business has been doing well, I don’t have to worry about financial issues anymore. There were times that I used to skip meals so that I will have enough money to survive. And now, everything is being taken care of. Not forgetting that I’m doing quite well in my studies too.
All these achievements and stability in life has definitely taken away some of my worries. However, I do realize that happiness is moving further away from me. Sometimes, I wonder if I still know how to enjoy life. It’s like I don’t know how to laugh anymore. In fact, even a smile seems impossible.
I can’t remember when was I really happy. Well, I do hang out with friends everyday but I always have so many things going on in my mind that I forget to sit back and relax. There’s just so much of pain in me that I don’t know how to let it out. I really wished that someone could just bring me somewhere away from this hectic lifestyle and make me happy. Just a day would be enough because all I want is to be happy even if it’s just for a short while.
You know what I’m thinking now? Wouldn’t it be cool if I could teleport myself to somewhere nobody knows me…erm…maybe not. Well people, don’t take this blog as a depressing one. I’m just so tired but I don’t want to complain to anyone. So here I am expressing myself in words.
